Just Me

Vicky Ras is a 30-something chronicler of life as experienced in measures of beauty, pain, victories, failures and passions. A former wannabe and an ex-teenage escape artist, she is a force of nature with a chronic case of the ‘elsewheres’. She loves rarely but when she does – like now – she does it enormously, boundlessly, and in overflowing measures. Not too far removed from the way she takes her pleasures and offers it back to the world. This blog is dedicated to people who like to give it all they’ve got – living life supersized, leaving room for the unexpected and the rest, as they say, is fate’s free-for-all. Cheers!

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Shroud me with optimism. Let me never metamorphose into the hard cynic I have started to manifest. Send me strength, courage and love that will linger even long after I’ve had close encounters with all my demons. Let me not unleash my bullheadedness, my unpredictable moods and shiftiness, my brutal honesty to those who couldn’t handle it. May I remain coquettish at the right time, for all time if possible. Teach me how to embrace and rejoice in being the vague, structured-one-minute-spontaneous-the-next, obsessive girl I am.

Remind me that I can always stretch farther than my short arms and legs can reach. Never tire of jogging my memory that I am responsible wholly and completely for my every move. Hearten my belief that my joy is supersized and wrapped up in pretty shiny ribbons of silence, solitude and eating chips and dark almond chocolates just as much as in thought-provoking conversation, sex, books, sex, independence and more sex. Yes, exactly in that order. Permit me the freedom to say merde to those who try to direct me, no matter how well-meaning they may be. By the same token, shower me with humility to take being told “go to hell” with a smile and a little toss of my hair.

Teach me to be good to myself, to take flight and be carefree soon and as often as I can afford it! Show me how dangerous it is for a woman, or for anyone, to be too wrapped-up in the “all about me” world. Let me be as melodramatic as I wish but at the same time be conscious of the fact that my melodrama is starting to cause detriment to myself and my relationships with people.

Most of all help me to be grateful without thinking myself indebted for life, to live without compromising on what is most important to me and to dream with a little more courage each day.

 

Xoxox

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13 thoughts on “Just Me”

  1. hi vicky! petra?! one of my dream destinations..i envy you!..one of the most magical places on earth that i only get to see on telly!

    1. Hi Eman! Yep, one of our Directors and I went to Petra just before we took off for Cairo. It was beautiful beyond words! I’m struggling with my blogpost as I’m terrified i won’t be able to give justice to the whole experience. Yaiks. You have to go there at least once before you retire!

  2. Hi Vicky,

    I’d like to invite you to participate in my research: “What Do Bloggers Want to Preserve? Defining the ‘Essence’ of User-Generated Content for Preservation.” This study will gain an understanding of how bloggers value their blogs and what elements bloggers think are important for preservation.

    You are being asked to participate because your blog posts are tagged as being related to the theme of travel in one of the blog-hosting services and because your blog is not hosted by any commercial agency. Your participation is completely voluntary.

    The survey is NOW OPEN and will remain open until midnight (EDT) 20 April 2011. If you are interested and would like to part in take the survey, please visit this URL: http://bloggersurvey.web.unc.edu/

    Thank you in advance for considering participation in my study, and please
    feel free to pass along this survey to others who might be interested!
    Ayoung Yoon
    Doctoral Student
    University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill
    School of Information and Library Science

    1. Hi there!

      Thank you for the invite. I’d love to be part of your research project. I’ll make time to go through your site and fill out the survey. Best of luck!

  3. Hello Ms. Vicky,

    I’m Jordan, one of the organizers of the 1st Mayor Ad Hebert Deloso Beach Fun Run last June 12, 2011 in Iba, Zambales. It was our privilege to have your team Reebok run with us. Thanks.

    I am writing you this letter not only to express my feeling of dismay about your harsh blog but also to shed light on what was the real score about the runners’ protests just after the race.

    First, please understand that the prizes for this run supposedly was merely for the first placers of the 5k, 10k and 21k run and that is for the male and female category. We as organizers have NOT set any prizes for 2nd, 3rd, 4th nor 5th placers for all categories. However, since these runners requested for a consolation prices for 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th placers, we were generous enough to give what they wanted and decided to give 1000, 1000, 500, 500 for 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th respectively. This gesture turned-out to have been abused. Runners wanted for more and have shown more acts of protests as you might have witnessed just after the event. Thus, we have decided to give in to what they wanted, again, by adding 500 for every 2nd placer and 3rd placer. Thus, since they already got a hold of the check initially given to them, we have given them another 500 cold cash for each for the 2nd and the third placer. However, since these protesters never got contented to the generosity we have extended to them, they still made their way to the mayor’s office and asked for additional cash and the mayor generously accommodated them.

    You see, giving prizes for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th for each category was not in our rule or program. We just extended generosity these runners since they have been saying to us that they have come form a far place and got no money for their transportation back to their province. Would you believe that Ms. Vicky?

    I am so dismayed by what you have hastily written in your blog without even hearing the organizer’s side. I am just but so civil enough to tolerate what you have written on our blog rather than taking some legal action about this matter. Again I say, it was a privilege to have you run in our event. 🙂

    Secondly, I don’t want to say a thing anymore.

    I am asking you then to please edit your blog and always write RESPONSIBLY.

    I am not hating you for this matter, i am just dismayed on what you did.

    Lets be friends and have more Run in the future.

    Jordan

    Please visit our website http://www.proeventswork.com to verify what prizes we have offered for each category.

  4. Dear Jordan, I trust that you have read my email regarding this and like I said, I truly appreciate your effort and class in coming forward with your side of the story. I am equally not hating on you, Jordan, as I am far too detached and objective when it comes to these things (though sometimes given to emotional outbursts, might I add) but my point really is that some people made some terrible judgment calls during the staging of the race that inevitably affected a lot of people. The venue was perfect and the race route was indeed a refreshing change from the usual routes in the Metro which we are all used to running and we had fun, truly. But overall, it was poorly managed. The prizes were not ready and the winners had to wait for more than an hour and queue outside to claim their prizes. And even before that, we started an hour or so late waiting for the race director or whoever to call the shots. You see, I am also in the events management industry and we have been staging events in various parts of the world for many years and this is how I have come to pay particular attention to details. My Boss trained me well. And you gotta admit, there were a lot of loose ends before, during, and especially after the race that were not secured properly. I am very sure your team had the best of intentions for the race and the runners, especially, but please help me to understand also how it came to be that so many things did not go down as well as they should have – given that it was still technically a small-scale fun run and could not have possibly been a logistical nightmare – if you compare it with other races.

    Having said that, I am going to tweak my blog post and make sure your side of the story is incorporated but more than that, let this be a lesson to all of us. I am a blogger and I run a personal blog which explains why, if you notice, most of my entries are very personal in the way that they reflect my innermost thoughts and feelings. I may overstep boundaries every now and then but I am quick to see the merit in things, especially when crucial details come to the surface. I am really glad you took the time and effort and showed great class by coming forward with your story. And again, i’m sorry if I have hurt your and Tita Susan’s feelings as I’m sure I have but at the end of the day, I only really call it as I see it.

    Again, thanks and looking forward to seeing you at the races. 🙂

    -Vicky-

  5. oh damn – nothing criticizing your website at all but i was researching what life was like for “supersized” people – like as in really really fat. this is not what your blog is about. misleading title.

    but i’d rather have a misleading title than 100 pounds amirite? lol

  6. Hi! I’m Sue, and I’m from SlimKicker, a fitness/diet app and online website. I bumped into your blog yesterday and it captured my interest!

    I’m contacting you b/c we’re about to release a fitness tracker (similar to FitBit) early next year, and are looking for bloggers who would be interested in getting 1 for free to review when it is out (negative or positive).

    Would you be interested in doing this? You can email me at: sue (at) slimkicker (com) with ‘Review’ in the email heading if you are.

    In case you don’t know, our online website SlimKicker basically turns your fitness/diet goals into a level-up RPG game. The tracker will work with the website, and allow people to track calories burned and number of steps they walk automatically. The more they exercise, the more points they rack up! That’s basically how it will work.

    Anyway, hope to hear back either way…

    – Sue
    P.S. You can choose not to display this comment as this is more of a private comment 🙂

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